This post has been challenging for me to write… I am not sure why. We are going home soon. We will create a new normal everyday as PenDell’s brain continues to heal. A part of me is so thrilled to go home and another part of me is so concerned. What if he stands up to walk without thinking about it, just like each of us does, and then when he realizes where he is and that he doesn’t have his full balance yet and I am in another room and I am not there to catch him… what if… deep breaths… breathe… we’ve got this!

PenDell is responding like a ROCKSTAR to rehab so he has been approved for full benefits and we will be here until 12/20! This means that our whole new, current reality will begin when we return home just before Christmas and his 65th birthday!

When I say that PenDell is responding like a rockstar, I am really under-exaggerating! The staff in each facility have spoken about how much they love working with him – and I don’t just mean the therapists – nurses, housekeeping, kitchen, front desk. His outlook and attitude everyday are uplifting and encompassing. The occupational therapist who is working with him is reaching for what will be the best rehab for his full healing. This week she has started doing yoga with him. Her yoga instructor is interested in learning how yoga can impact those who are healing from brain injury. She has joined them this week. PenDell loves finding the strength of centering in his core and finding his way into the poses. He also loves finding the words to tell me about his experience when he returns to the room!

So, here is the little bit of me being me… I have also been transformed through this experience… of course. It is hard to convey what living in the four walls of hospital rooms, making the decisions I have had to make in honor of PenDell and his life, missing my husband, missing my children, missing my dog, missing my business – walking out of the door one afternoon in August leaving the life that we had created and entering a transition into a life yet unknown – has given me.

PenDell and I say at least once a day that we feel honored and responsible to fully live into the amazing gift that this experience is. He is not the man in expression that he was before and we don’t know what the future will look like. Brain recovery is unpredictable. I know, in my heart, that he will regain full cognition and we know that he / we will never be the same. I may have said this in an earlier post … as we walked into the emergency room on August 19, 2016, hand in hand, we looked each other in the eye and said, “There will be gold in this, let’s go there!”

So, here we are going there.

As always, we are grateful, so very, very grateful, for the surround, support, love, donations, attunements, gifts, presence of each of you. We are blessed.

In the words of another dear soul… Love, Love, Love (bless you, Zoe)!